How could you!
How could you
you are so sensitive!
to the feelings
of others –
such EXquisite pain?!
Don’t you know
the acts and deeds
done through love
infuse the soul?
Can’t you see
of love only appease
the mind –
and seldom convince
Sensitive my ass!
So long (gone) baby!
Carried you for far too long –
today awoke and put you down.
One looong last drag,
one looong last ring,
at last this half-life habit gone!
old man geezer neighbored ‘hi’
green teeth sugar smile on mutant head,
made me round up puppy dog
in shed that housed his dusty clunker,
made me think doggie a prize
to keep, if I would place the tie
around his neck “and just keep calm,
he’s a stray but he’ll make a fine pet”
said this farmhand, my young mom’s friend –
he knew about the wren I tamed,
and my bunnies from under the porch nest,
mom told him about my way with the wilds
so I knew why he picked me
child that I was –
it took awhile for that stray to gain my trust
“you’re a good girl, now hold him still”
I never saw it coming! but I can still hear it
reverberating off thin tin siding and, oh my God!
strange Elmer’s crazyface *flash* smokinghand!
frozen in time, this memory, this heart,
and the way its body went thump thump
on the gravel behind his truck to the dump.
You, mild mannered man…………(crave me),
your quick temper hid from all…(save me),
watch communion plate pass hand to
hand Old Woman mutters what a good man
humble Loving Father lucky woman that she is –
forgive us our sins Preacher man!
Every Sunday starts out righteous – thank God!
for Wednesday nights are voices
crashing through closed doors
sharp as cracking! whips! and talk-in-tongues!
(heralding the binge once more)
O heavenly Jesus, save me
from your mild mannered man,
for I know only contempt –
holding his false image to my face –
wear your mask.